I'll say... I assisted last night while others were out drinking and trading plastic beads for naughtiness. It is one month later, the writing group has pretty much disintegrated, I'm in debt up to my ears, I still have a roommate, I'm still in San Diego, I'm still not candidated as an Introduction Leader for Landmark Education, my car is not running, I'm still in the 300 club, and I am barely playing my Game.
The funny thing is, I am having a blast! The difference is, I am in action around all of these things. I have exactly one month to complete my film for the American Black Film Festival, and I am full of confidence! I will win that competition. I have access to mechanic to fix my car, and a friend is going to pick up the bill until I can pay him back. Roomie is going to find out that he needs to get gone today, and the funny thing is, I was feeling bad about wanting him to leave, so I gathered a bunch of evidence for why he is a terrible roommate. Where I am now, is I just want my place all to my self again. I can put up with all of the negative stuff about him. I've been doing just that all this time that I've been complaining about it. While most of that stuff will leave with him, I'm not interested in that. I am interested in having a great time while I'm here in San Diego, and one way for that to happen is to create more space in my life. In this case, I mean actual, tangible space... Like my bedroom back... Like a separate office.
I am also drawing a line in the sand around living here in San Diego. I am out of here by mid-August. I have no idea what it will look like, but I will be moving back to beloved LA, and will be living in the loft of my dreams there. I will have an awesome job by March 14. I will be candidated by then as well. Someone else can worry about the writing group, as I am not interested in begging people to show up, much less, write. What I will be doing is writing, and that alone will cause others to do so, and cause them to find me. I will find the woman I have been waiting for all of my life, and we will be together, committed, and living in abundant joy by July. With all of this going on, you would expect to not here from me, but there you are sadly mistaken. As I am creating my life anew, I will actually want to share it with you. If I were you, I'd check in here a bit more often, as I will be writing my ass off.
Are you getting the picture? I am putting my butt on the line, and living for myself, and not my concerns. Things are going to go exactly the way I have said. Because I say so.
